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    Hi, I’m Krista.

    Strategic communicator and storyteller.

    I am the wife of a very talented musician who takes me around the world in pursuit of excellence. Mama to Jakob, Audrey and Ella, who just happens to have Down Syndrome.
    And an aspiring disciple of Jesus, defender of the oppressed, writer, graphic designer and photographer.

    I write and speak on navigating through the fog of life…you know, when things don’t go exactly as planned and am fuelled by a passion to amplify the voices of those on the margins…
    oh, and coffee…lots of coffee.

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The Waiting Game.

January 15, 2015
Three babies, three different ways – never straight forward. One day, when this little one is safely in my arms I will tell you all about it but for now, let me say that I find it very strange that if, hypothetically speaking, a mother were to design birth announcements in advance, agonizing over which font perfectly reflects the personality of her unborn child and mulling over a colour palette, that not only could she fill in the date of her baby’s birth but time as well…not that any lunatic design minded person would do that…
Tomorrow, I will have had three appointments in one week – OB, GP and Anesthesiologist. It’s a good thing my doctor told me to stop working because quite frankly, I don’t have time between ultrasounds, steroid shots, and doctor’s appointments. What a different and surreal experience. I found myself a bit shell shocked after my OB appointment – I guess I just wasn’t expecting to have to answer questions like, “How do you feel about a hysterectomy? Better to decide now than in the OR.” This is all so new and quite frankly, scary. I know how to give birth and this ain’t it. But no, this is it. This is how our girl will make her arrival. I will show up on the day they tell me. I won’t go into labour, my water won’t break (not that it ever does), I won’t have any contractions and yet, for the first time, I will have drugs and in a matter of minutes, I will have a little baby. Until then, I have to sit…it’s kinda like trying to pin down a cloud.
This is hard. In fact, it kinda just sucks. I don’t know how to do this. I don’t know how to sit and watch as my children have to entertain themselves while it is sunny outside and I hate that all I can do is get angry when Ella goes from fridge to counter to getting into Jakob’s toys, to getting into anything and everything she is not supposed to. I hate getting impatient I get because I can’t do anything but sit. I want to go for a walk. I want to clean my house. I want to organize stuff. I want to play with my children. I want to take them for a bike ride. I want to cook meals. I want to nest. I want to bake cookies…but I also want this baby to come in four weeks rather than this week and I don’t want to be laid up in a hospital bed.

There I said it.


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  • About Me

    Hi, I’m Krista.

    Strategic communicator and storyteller.

    I am the wife of a very talented musician who takes me around the world in pursuit of excellence. Mama to Jakob, Audrey and Ella, who just happens to have Down Syndrome.
    And an aspiring disciple of Jesus, defender of the oppressed, writer, graphic designer and photographer.

    I write and speak on navigating through the fog of life…you know, when things don’t go exactly as planned and am fuelled by a passion to amplify the voices of those on the margins…
    oh, and coffee…lots of coffee.

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