This past Sunday, we ran…for you. We came together with hundreds of other people for you and because of you. And as I reflect back on your six years, I am awestruck at the impact that you have had on me – on the way I see the world, on the way I live, the patience I thought I lacked and a love I never knew I was capable of.
But Ella, even crazier than that, is that you haven’t just impacted me. I have seen so many others be changed because of you. I have heard stories, I have seen tears, I have felt their hearts grow to almost bursting…because of you. So many of these people I am afraid to let go of, because I am afraid that in the future, others will not be so kind – I am afraid that they will not see you the way that I see you or the way that so many who have gone before see you…for the compassionate, spirited, strong, smart and beautiful girl that you are. But why should I think this way? You are still all these things. And every time we move or meet new people, they, without fail, love you instantly because there is a light inside of you – an infectious, life-giving light. Baby girl, God has used you and continues to use you in ways I could not have even imagined.
I remember when you were just new to the world. I was afraid. I was afraid of the dark. I was afraid of the things I didn’t know and the things I couldn’t see. Sometimes, that fear still threatens to grab hold but do you know what calmed my fear? Your light. Your light, and God’s love. Ella, I knew you were a gift from Him and I promised to love you, His child – love you with all of my heart and protect you. I remember holding you so tightly. Now you are the one who holds me.
Happy Birthday Baby Girl.