tap, tap, tap, hello? is anyone out there?

Every year around this time, I am thrown into an existential crisis. Not necessarily bad, but notable. You see, I love resolutions. I love reviewing my year, looking at the good, the bad and the ugly and I love setting goals. But this year is different. We are still in transition. We cannot fully settle into our lives because inevitably things will change. Things have to change. We cannot live the way we are, mostly financially. I tell people, “if it weren’t for the whole money thing, I would say we have a great life!” But we keep trusting that Ben will get a job that can sustain us and that means time away from the kids, which inevitably means, life will look very different than it does now.. So I am wary of going and doing an overhaul in any area of my life, because I am not even sure what it will look like… “normally”….whatever normal is.

But hypothetically speaking there are usually a few key areas which come under review:
Spiritual

Health and Wellness

The Day to Day

and while we’re here, the blog

…probably in that order.

But today I am going to only talk about a couple areas in general.

Health and Wellness:

Bottom line – I love a good cleanse to start my year. In the past, I have favoured the Wild Rose Cleanse but let’s face it, it’s expensive and a little intrusive. In addition, keeping in mind how busy I felt once school started, I can’t imagine I will have two weeks to devote to tailor made healthy meals – this is definitely an area that has suffered since my return to work. So this year, I am going to try out Dr. Oz’s 3 day cleanse. Why? Because it comes on one sheet of paper. I kid you not. It’s right there for you. What you need to buy, what you need to eat. I’ll let you know how it goes.

I have also started doing yoga again after a far-too-long hiatus. It felt so good to be on the mat again even though it felt not so good for the two days following. My mom has been suggesting for a while as well, that it is something she would like to try but didn’t want to go alone so for Christmas we bought her a pass for beginner yoga and I will be joining her. It will be good to start at the beginning and nail down the basics again.

And finally, meal-planning. As I said, healthy meals have been an area that has suffered since my return to work. Not that we eat horribly unhealthy but compared to Cambridge, things have definitely regressed. We have agreed that Ben will be in charge of dinner two nights as well. One night he brought home a frozen pizza – he learned quickly never to do that again. Haha.

The Day to Day is still under review, as is the Spiritual but then there is the blog.

Last year, I blogged all the time. Some weeks, everyday. Not only did I have the time but it was also a way to connect with people while I was so far away. But things change and I call to question once again, why blog? I always said I never want to narrow the subject matter on my blog. I would write about what I wanted to write about whether that be DS or motherhood, food or my adventures in Cambridge but it has come to the point again were I feel myself tapping on the screen asking, hello? is anybody out there? I question the content of my little space, my audience, the look and feel. Is it a photography blog? a food blog? a DS mommy blog? a Christian faith blog? Thus far, I have reached no conclusions but they are questions worth asking. Sometimes, I think it would be nice to have a pretty blog like Katie’s Pencil Box or Emmadime but I think really, I just wish that I had the time and talent to create beautiful things like they do. But then again, isn’t my whole life supposedly beautiful?

Things to ponder.

Fall of 2012 went WAY to fast. Life consisted of rushing to one thing to the next. No baking, no painting, no photography. I think most of all, I just want to slow down in 2013. And so far, I think we’re doing alright – taking time to spend time with friends, let boys be boys and capture the little moments (like Ella trying to feed a rock to a horse). Soren never seems to be in a hurry, (except to get to the beach), so I have a feeling that having him around will be very helpful.