I feel it….the ebb and flow of change: change of heart, change of season, change of focus. Or it could just be the change in routine, having my mom here and getting used to a new organizational system. That’s right, I kept the iphone.
I sometimes forget what it is like to have company. I have spent so many hours without adult companionship in the last 6 months that I find myself a little lost. Whereas before, I would walk in solitude, writing stories and posts in my head, in the last couple days, I have had conversations and instead of running to the computer upon my return home, to jot down the things that filled my head while I was out, I make tea, and sit, and try to be decent company….which I am not, because I have discovered that we have become those people….The completely irrelevant nerds who don’t watch T.V. or listen to pop music. I have spent six months living, watching, listening to only things that I want to (or have time to),
being careful not to commit to anything unable to commit to anything because of Ben’s demanding schedule. We have lived unaffected. As I type it, I realize that is the perfect word. It is a strange realization.
What will it be like when we return? Wherever it is that we will call home for the next chapter. Where we have friends, and try to get involved. Will we fit in…probably not, I am wondering if we ever did.
The kids on the other hand…have had no problem adjusting to having company…the just LOVE having Grandma here!