This post is not about Cambridge nor is it about Reece’s Rainbow. It is about being a mother and questions that I cannot reason my way through so am looking for feedback.
Ella is 2 and half. She is a big girl and an active girl. I know the end of Mommy time is coming/come but I am unsure as to how to cope.
I have always prided myself in my children’s sleeping habits and attribute it to our regular routine but when we moved to Cambridge I let up on routine and tried to live a little “free-er”. With this however came less time at home and more naps on the go…if any at all. So as we transition into shorter wet days, I am okay to be at home more BUT part of the reason I love being out is because I don’t worry about what’s at home. There’s no cleaning up when you are walking cobble stone streets.
Ella’s sleeping habits turned dismal wouldn’t be so bad but if she isn’t sleeping she is destroying. Taking every card out of the deck, car out of the box, book off the shelf, tupperware out of the cupboards, throwing spices and other kitchen finds in the garbage…you know, 2 year old stuff. But this momma is tired. I do the single parent thing more often than most as 5 nights a week or more Ben is doing his thang- which is good, don’t get me wrong. I love it and encourage it, all I am saying is that this momma is tired and just wants to sit down and have a cup of tea and read a book. And I feel AWFUL closing the door on a little girl who clearly did not have nap on her agenda. On top of which, we did not bring or buy a crib for her, which means that if she to sleep it either needs to be pitch black, or I need to lay with her. Today, I spent 40 minutes wrestling her to lay down and finally stuck her in the playpen we borrowed for when our guests were here and closed the door. I can still hear her. To add insult to injury, I will probably end up waking her up…if she falls asleep, when I go to get Jakob from school.
I am going to cave now and go get her but if you have any advice, encouragement or validation I would love to hear it.