I sometimes forget what it is like to have company. I have spent so many hours without adult companionship in the last 6 months that I find myself a little lost. Whereas before, I would walk in solitude, writing stories and posts in my head, in the last couple days, I have had conversations and instead of running to the computer upon my return home, to jot down the things that filled my head while I was out, I make tea, and sit, and try to be decent company....which I am not, because I have discovered that we have become those people....The completely irrelevant nerds who don't watch T.V. or listen to pop music. I have spent six months living, watching, listening to only things that I want to (or have time to),
What will it be like when we return? Wherever it is that we will call home for the next chapter. Where we have friends, and try to get involved. Will we fit in...probably not, I am wondering if we ever did.
The kids on the other hand...have had no problem adjusting to having company...the just LOVE having Grandma here!
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It sounds like you're your own brand of Third Culture Kid ... but I don't even have to beseech you not to try to fit in. You are who you are and that is whom we love and admire and commiserate with and cheer on. When you come for a visit to Trois Lumps, there will be any number of people who will vie for your time; I want to be one of the first to claim you for an hour or two of tea and rice pudding, and conversation or not. Just to be silent with you in the same room would be perfect too.
Unaffected? No way!!!! You have been pressed upon with a new culture. You have embraced adventure and done something scary that took guts...moving away from home.If anything, you are a changed woman and will bring so much life to the table when you go back home...wherever that is. You just wait and see! When you move away from family, it makes your own family become your best friends...and that's a great thing. You learned to depend on each other. It's kind of beautiful! I think you will find that you have established a very strong family unit while "you were gone".
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