Crying it out

Well, sorry to say, that converting to a toddler bed did little except give a real good shiner to Jakob's collection, when he jumped right off his bed. He loves jumping on his bed and does not love going to sleep. Here is the problem. Me, of course. I like rocking him to sleep and singing him songs. I have to say, I NEVER used to do this. He has always been go, go go and never liked to cuddle and bed time, as I mentioned before was- he was in bed and asleep shortly thereafter. In the last month, things have changed, why? I wish I could tell you. BUT NOW, there is this cuddly Jakob that comes out after he has realized that we aren't leaving his room....(well at least he is not) until the morning. And he comes and sits on my lap (sorta-the belly is getting in the way) and I sing to him until he falls into the almost sleep and then put him in his bed. I just can't stand to hear him cry. I know he is not hurt and not injured and will not be emotionally scared for eternity if I let him cry it out, but I JUST DON'T LIKE DOING IT- I also wonder how productive it actually is, because it seems to me, that it would just get him worked up rather than settled down. Tonight I let him cry long, oh I don't know, about 20 minutes and I just couldn't do it. This inconsistancy probably doesn't help either. But what do I do. This fear lingers- in that I may or may not be able to sit and cuddle with him for a half hour when baby comes. So do I do it all the more now, for that very reason, or do I establish the iron fist and suck it up?

Charlotte's Web and other happenings

Yesterday marked the opening night for the Art's Academy's spring production of Charlotte's Web. Jakob and I were able to catch a bit of the dress rehearsal and it looked great. Needless to say, Ben is very busy with that and we are like ships passing in the night as he takes care of Jakob until 3pm and then doesn't get home until I am long asleep. Its exciting, however and Ben is loving his job at the Arts Academy and we feel great joy and peace in the fact that Ben has one full time job in the arts. (This was the goal- and not all that realistic might I add, anyone who knows a musician knows the struggles of industry.) He also teaches guitar and gets opportunities to perform here and there, so doesn't loose that aspect of the arts.

I tried to upload a video that I took of Jakob today, however I am not technologically savvy enough to know how to convert the file into something acceptable, so I really do urge those on facebook to check it out. PRICELESS. For the rest, some pics of sunday pancakes and my little book worm. As cute as he is however, we have been having sleeping issues. This is new for Jakob. He has always been such a great sleeper. He could go to sleep on his own in his crib from day one and slept through the night at two months, however lately, he has been waking up at night, unconsolable, unless he is brought into mommy's bed. This has taken a toll of mommy of course and I am feeling pretty exhausted, as I don't really sleep when he is in my bed. So some friends suggested trying the toddler bed. The child then feels independant and apparently this has made a great difference in their toddler's sleeping habits. I think we will give it a try.

As for me, not much is new on the homefront, which is a good thing. As my doctor says, "you aren't even anemic" Apparently gestational diabetes and anemia are very common here among pregnant women. So we wait, we look forward to going out to BC for Easter and then of course the long awaited arrival of the very active being moving around in my belly as we speak.[gallery]